Awoke a little off despite what looks to be like a pretty day; attribute that to staying up WAY too late looking for freaking groceries. I understand the real fear and people not wanting to go to the grocery store, but there’s delivery services. If everyone would just chill there’d be enough for everyone. And if alternates were considered, given demand, why not shift the work force to delivery services and packaging and cull a donation cue with pick up and delivery service - maybe some of the hoarders would give back?
Anyway - tears did find their way out this morning during SRF exercises. And as I reference it, SRF is the Self Realization Fellowship founded by Paramahansa Yogananda; his book Autobiography of a Yogi arrived in my hands at a time when I felt crushed and defeated and the kindest of souls gave me a place to sleep, food to eat and put this book into my hands. His words and story settled and soothed my sadness. I could feel the love radiating from the pages. And at the end, I felt quieter and a deep sense of peace. While i’ve never been able to attend a formal group or lecture, I wrote the Temple and received the lessons that begin with daily exercises. And as I’ve never completed the lessons, perhaps this time could be used in part to return to them.
Amazing how I can lose my line of thinking in a day but to recap a few things I’m thinking about that I shared with others:
Taking heart that the whole world is going through this. The WHOLE WORLD is experiencing the unknown; the sand shifting beneath our feet. And in that, I feel I’ve been given a block of time and I’ve asked myself - what are you going to do with this so as not to waste it. Easy to say when I have a job and things to do during the day for work and money set aside. Very easy. I can’t imagine doing this without that. But I believe there are those rare and beautiful bright souls who will take this time and do something with it.
For my own part, that’s writing, photographing, texting/talking with people.
It’s walks outside and yoga and eating better
It’s simply taking care of myself and allowing myself to experience all there is right now
It’s keeping my feet planted; focusing on right now.
For therein is the kiss of life.
Food
Breakfast: Smoothie
Lunch: egg/cheese tortilla, apple
Dinner: Salad with chicken & Italian dressing
Dessert: (2) pieces of candy, berries & ice cream